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Dec012017

Racked

Wrackline

An ecological bridge between land and sea;

the line of debris left on the beach by high tide, usually made up of grass, kelp, crustacean shells, feathers, bits of plastic, and scraps of litter.
 


Everything is next to something. The grass next to sand, next to beach, next to sea.

The waves roll slow and steady, somersaults of saltwater meeting beach.

The low angle light casts long shadows.

Everything lives in the shadow of the grander thing.

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I am waiting for pies to set, a phone to ring, my mother to not die, my sister to not cry. Beyond this wrackline of broken shell and damp decay, I am waiting for the next wave.

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Here, once or twice or for twenty years, we cross states and days to leave dull winters, shed coats and shoes and transform into people who sun and swim. Here, we are people who laugh.

Yes, I have proof. See, here, the photo, black and white and faded with time — that's us, fresh-faced from the surf, strong and sure, smiling.

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Every morning we wake and look to the flag, listless or stiff. Today it flaps both warning and invitation, an urgent red against a sky of blue.

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Walking the wrackline, we spot glossy rocks, thin shells, stranded jellyfish, small sandcrabs. The water, a wave machine that never ends, softens sound and muffles our voices so that our tongues go slack with the work of language.   

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On the shore between lost and found, I can't find my notebook, pages and pages of my history, my voice, my self. I panic, hunt, give up, begin again.

Wreck and re-do share the same shadow.

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Once, here, we drank too much and quarreled home.

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In the distance, a woman sits on the sand, where it turns from lofty to soft to firm but not yet wet. She is alone on an empty beach watching her friend — husband? lover? son? — bobbing in the waves. She wears an unnamed sadness, I imagine, like a grief she holds but cannot carry. I watch and watch, will not turn away. This is projection, of course, a misplaced empathy. But I can’t stop watching this woman who is sitting still, her back to me, living quietly contained.

I keep looking. I keep looking to really see. 

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Once, a sudden storm pounded our car, a torrent of water flooded the street. We huddled inside, stunned, racked with a rumble of uncertainty we’ve yet to shake.  

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Along this line, I walk for miles, each step a decision that finally brings me home.

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Back at the pool and free of nature’s mess, the water is chlorine clean. Slipping in, the water amplifies my breath to truth: loud, ragged, singular. The body is weightless and floating, my face turns to a wide endless sky. My heart pumps pumps pumps, gives rise to tears, salted and soundless, the one thing that seems essential and true.

 

 

Reader Comments (6)

I have no comment that is adequate, but believe me that this post/poem pierced me, that it will be moving in me for some time. . . .a wrackline -- I'm captivated by that word -- so many connotations, so many near-words, wreck, reck, rack -- as such a different pointer to liminal space. . . Thank you.

December 3, 2017 | Unregistered CommenterFrances

Frances,

What a wonderful compliment — thank you so very much.

With appreciation,
Drew

December 3, 2017 | Registered CommenterDrew Myron

P.S - Frances --- Wrackline is, indeed, an evocative word. If you haven't already, read "Walking the Wrackline" a moving essay collection by Barbara Hurd.

December 3, 2017 | Registered CommenterDrew Myron

Thanks, Drew. I'll see if I can find this collection.

December 7, 2017 | Unregistered CommenterFrances

Connecting the dots, and the space between . . . this is why I love your writing!

December 9, 2017 | Unregistered CommenterJeff Düngfelder

Oh Jeff, that is the nicest thing! Thank you.

December 9, 2017 | Registered CommenterDrew Myron

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